I grew up having to be respectful and obedient in a house that I was the 2nd to the last on the age hierarchy of the whole house. I so wanted to grow up. I didn't like to have to be ordered around by almost anyone just because they were said to be older than I was. Anyone who knew my mind should have known I just wanted to grow up and become an adult who was told not to do anything by anyone. I needed to be the controller of my actions, It was no more fun having just everyone think I was younger so I should do that or do this..... I needed to just grow, maybe then they could let me go.
At least 5 years later, I was old enough to be in the later years of high school, there were now some people younger than I was around, yet those that were older, did not stop at making sure everyone knew they were around. Why on earth I should come from the room to the sitting room for the fridge to get my 1 year older female cousin a glass of water, was something I still could not understand at age 16. I would have to include that at 16 I was already 5ft 10 inches tall. People should give me respect for my height I must have thought always. Moreover, most people found a way of giving my age 3 - 4 years ahead, but, these people in my house, they felt they knew my age, they knew my wage, I was just that small rat in a cage and they were the big cat on a rage. I thought of age 20, I would be almost a graduate I guessed, I should have had a car and a paying job.
I think I am well over 20 now, I can say I have grown. Growing was not the case I guess, getting matured was. Am just hoping that as I try to get matured, something new does not come up.... Now they now mock my 6ft 3 inches height saying, you won't grow again, I care less... Am just wondering when the dividends of my investments would mature. The best teacher experience did show me the thin line between growth and maturity... It was an interesting lecture I must say.
_CoperateStreetBoy
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